Discernment

The Role of Momentum

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Science was hardly my strong suit in school, but even I’m familiar with Newton’s law of motion:

An object at rest stays at rest and an object in motion stays in motion with the same speed and in the same direction unless acted upon by an unbalanced force.

This can just as easily apply to romantic scenarios as to the physical universe. If there’s no impetus to motion, the connection will falter and flag. Romance needs a kick-start, and that impetus is correlated to the level of interest.

Momentum has Different Speeds

Not all connections move forward at the same pace. All relationships are different, because each relationship is composed of two individuals creating a unique space that no one else shares. As a result, the pace of how those relationships are created can look different from one relationship to another.

I’ve had a relationship where we recognized our connection immediately and another where it took months to discern our level of interest. Think of it like the gears on a bike, you’re still moving forward but at different speeds. You and your potential mate get to mutually determine the pace that’s right for you.

That said, without enough Momentum, the bike will fall over, or to use another analogy, the connection will fizzle out, like firewood that never got a strong enough spark to start a fire.

Momentum and Discernment

Discernment is what I call the period when you’re discerning your level of interest in a potential match. During the Discernment phase, you want to engage enough to keep forward Momentum, while refraining from pushing forward a connection that doesn’t hold potential. So, how to balance Momentum with the need to discern?

Be intentional about actively using this discernment period as an information gathering stage. As you’re learning more about your potential match as an individual, pay attention to your level of compatibility, how they treat you, how you feel in their company, and any chemistry you have. This information can help you make informed decisions about how much Momentum to add, whether to back away, or whether to maintain your current pace.

Some considerations:

  • How physically attracted are you? A little? And then some? Extremely? Can you imagine being physically intimate with them? Is the physical intimacy satisfying?
  • How much are you enjoying the conversation? Is it so-so? Dull? Engaging?
  • Do they stimulate you? Pique your interest? Make you laugh?
  • Do you look forward to hearing from them? Are you eager to? Not so much?
  • How do they treat you? Are they kind? Respectful? Condescending? Do you feel seen and heard?
  • How do your interactions make you feel? Safe? Charmed? Energized? Anxious? Scrutinized?
  • How are you feeling about the connection at this point? Indifferent? Unsure? Intrigued? Hopeful? Excited?

Unless you know you’re ready to write the connection off, maintain any Momentum you already have while you explore the connection’s viability. To do this, maintain regular contact, whether messaging on platform, texting, phone calls, or in person rendezous.

Without regular contact, Momentum diminishes. There’s not going to be a relationship spark when one or both parties aren’t interested enough to maintain regular contact. Do you want to settle for someone who’s either not interested enough in you or that you’re not interested enough in to make the effort for regular contact?

For me, regular contact is often the form of a daily check-in, whether responding to a message on platform, a text to check in and wish them a good day, or a good night phone call. More than that, usually means that we’re actively building Momentum and feeling connection. Less than that is a good indicator that I’m either not feeling the connection, or it lacks sufficient Momentum to go anywhere.

For Example:

Here are some recent examples of the role of Momentum in my interactions:

Infrequency Stalls Out Momentum

Jonas’s communications were terse, but interesting. I’d respond within a day, as is my habit; his responses took longer, typically 3-4 days. The conversation was engaging enough that I continued to communicate with him, though with a lag of 3-4 days in responses, there wasn’t much Momentum. As a result, I had no expectation of the connection leading anywhere. I finally let go of the conversation when he mistakenly addressed me as “Lisa.” If he couldn’t even bother to remember my name, it seemed like a good time to bow out. We never even made it off-platform.

Absence Does NOT Make the Heart Grow Fonder

When Gary messaged me after no contact for three months, any Momentum we had was long gone. His absence was a bucket of water on the firewood. I didn’t bother to respond.

Adjusting Momentum with Discernment

Gradually Increasing Momentum

Jay was more communicative than Jonas, responding at least once a day at length. Sometimes we’d even dialogue on platform in real time. We had some Momentum. I enjoyed our conversation and had a good sense of him. I decided to add further Momentum to explore the viability of our connection, and level up a gear. I gave him my phone number.

We maintained our communication Momentum via text, much as we had on platform. As our conversation continued to unfold in an encouraging way, I added further Momentum, suggesting we chat on the phone. Real time conversation would allow me to get a better sense of him and further discern the viability of our connection.

Had things continued to go well, my next move would’ve been to throw out the idea of planning a rendezvous, if he didn’t suggest it himself. Unfortunately, I learned an aspect of his situation that’s a dealbreaker for me, so I hit the brakes.

Jonas and I never had any Momentum to launch us, no fuel to spark a fire, regardless of any compatibility we may or may not have had. With Jay, I gradually added Momentum to fuel our connection, until the connection no longer made sense.

Of course, I’m not always the one who attempts to add Momentum to the connection. When a man tries to advance our Momentum, I must decide if I’m comfortable and desirous of leveling up, or if I need to back off.

Decreasing Momentum

Walter and I had a pleasant exchange of daily messages, but I wasn’t feeling the chemistry. When he suggested that we exchange phone numbers, I withheld my daily message. By breaking the Momentum of our communication, I was sending a silent message so he wouldn’t be completely blindsided when I came to a full stop. The next day, I did message him, wishing him well, but explaining that I wasn’t feeling the kind of chemistry I’m seeking in a romantic relationship.

Being Intentional About Momentum

Sometimes between two people, the sparks fly quickly and the Momentum comes naturally. But, when that isn’t the case, it’s helpful to be intentional about gauging the pace of your connection’s Momentum and whether it matches your discernment of its potential or lack thereof.

Facets of Momentum

When determining how to match your pace to your feelings about the connection, there are different facets of Momentum to consider:

  • Response Time: How quickly or slowly you respond to a potential match communicates information about your level of interest. A quick response indicates you’re prioritizing them and glad to hear from them. A slower response indicates that you have some interest, but too slow and that kindling won’t ignite. Likewise, their response time gives you information about their level of interest.
  • Frequency: How often you communicate impacts Momentum. If there’s a lag of days between messages, then it’s difficult to establish Momentum. If you have daily contact, you have sufficient Momentum which you can increase or decrease as you discern your level of interest. If you’re communicating multiple times a day, the Momentum is building…
  • Form: The form your communication takes is also a reflection of Momentum and interest. If you’re still communicating on platform, you have less Momentum than once you move beyond the platform. Every time you move up a level of communication (platform, text, phone/video call, in person) you’re adding Momentum to the connection.
  • Flirtation: Flirtation feeds the fire. The more flirtation your interaction has, the more Momentum you’re giving the connection. In turn, the less flirtatious the interaction, the less Momentum.

Each of these facets plays a role in establishing the Momentum of your relationships. Keep in mind that’s it’s easier to hold back or maintain Momentum, than it is to pull back once Momentum is pushed forward. Be intentional about aligning your actions to your discernment and feelings. Likewise, pay attention to the signals that a potential match is sending relative to Momentum.

Shifts in Momentum

If you notice a sudden shift in Momentum in your relationship, pay attention–it means something’s happening.

If the Momentum increases quickly, and you’re on board with that, then enjoy the ride!

However, if you notice the Momentum’s shifting down, it’s likely a signal that something is going on with your connection/partner. Regardless of how long you’ve been together, if there’s a shift in an established pattern of communication, there’s probably a reason, some Force that’s acting upon your established Momentum. It may or may not be an issue with you or the relationship itself. It could be work stress or a health/family/financial issue. Alternately, it could also be a sign of doubt or an affair. The point is to pay attention to it and address it.

It may be a situation where by being attentive you’re able to be a supportive partner and take care of your relationship, or it may be that your awareness prevents you from being blindsided and prepares you for an unpleasant truth. Either way, it’s better to be informed and have an awareness of your reality, even if it’s not the reality you want. Whatever your truth is, knowledge empowers you to take action matching your truth.

Final Thoughts

Be attentive to the Momentum in your connections and relationships. Have an awareness of Momentum so that you can act on that Momentum in a deliberate manner. Don’t allow your awareness to stray into paranoid territory, but rather use that awareness to read the situation, and take action as it makes sense to you.

May you find the right person to gear up with. Good luck out there!

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The Preciousness of Connection

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As individuals, we each have certain predispositions of personality, inclinations, and curiosities. As we come into ourselves over time, we tend to settle further into who we are, shaped, of course, by our experiences and how we grow from them or fail to. Who we are affects who we connect with and what we bring to relationship dynamic.

My last post probed the preciousness of One, the singular, the individual. When seeking romantic relationship, we commonly refer to a search for “The One.” But not anyOne can be “The One.” That’s why when you find a right person, that Connection is precious as well.

Connection is the Exception, not the Rule

There are many things to consider in seeking a romantic partner–compatibility; how they make you feel; does the relationship/situation make sense in your life; are you physically attracted to them–but Connection is more than that. Connection is an amplification of compatibility, feeling, and attraction. It’s a mutual recognition where you see and feel seen by each other, an intuitive “getting” each other, and a compulsion to know each other better. It’s the spark of life in relationship.

You aren’t going to find that kind of Connection with a random person or dating profile. The rarity of such Connection is part of its preciousness, like a gem. And while you’re not going to have Connection with every person you encounter on your romantic quest, optimally, dating is a discernment process through which you discover Connection or, at least, the kind of people you Connect with, making it easier to pinpoint good possibilities as you go forward.

A widower recently told me that, once he started dating again, the only thing important to him was that the woman was pretty. Now, several years later, he realizes that isn’t enough. While I question that he was ever shallow enough that looks were the only thing that mattered (How about some general compatibility or common interests?), as he’s continued on his journey, he’s discerned more of what he wants in a partner.

When I see a dating profile where the man says he’s not sure what he’s looking for, I know he’s early on his journey, and he’s not for me. I know well the kind of men who I Connect with and what I’m looking for in a man at this juncture, and one of those qualities is a man who knows what he wants as well.

It hasn’t always been that way, but that’s been part of the journey. When I started dating after my divorce, I went out with several men who were wrongs before I finally found a right man, and when I did, I fell for him hard. Funny thing is, I’d been with that kind of man before…

Recognizing Connection

Isaac was an echo across time of my college sweetheart. Ted was an art history major, now a conservator at the Met; Isaac, the director of a prestigious art museum. They’re both classic tall, dark, and handsome. They’re both intellectual and witty. It turns out that Isaac was the middle-aged version of the kind of man I was attracted to as a young woman.

So, Laura has a type. The art-type piece isn’t an essential part of the equation, though it’s certainly serendipitous and indicative of particular inclinations. When Isaac came into my life, I knew right away that he was the kind of man I wanted to be with. And after Isaac dumped me, I wondered, where I am I going to find another man like this?

The answer, I realized, was likely not in Lincoln or even Nebraska. If I hoped to find another such man, it would require me broadening my search geographically, so I did. As a result, I’ve made more special Connections, but even so, those Connections are far between–several months or years apart with thousands of profiles in between. Part of the preciousness of those Connections is the preciousness of each individual man and part is the rarity of finding such a Connection at all. It’s the unicorn in a herd of horses. Or the Whooping Crane amid a flock of Sandhill Cranes.

In grad school, I lived near the Sandhill Crane migration route and watched their migration annually. At that time, amid their flock was an orphaned Whooping Crane who they’d adopted as one of their own. For those of you who aren’t birders, a grown Whooping Crane is a full foot taller than a Sandhill Crane, and if you drove around the countryside watching the cranes feed in the fields, it was easy to spot the Whooping Crane, should you be lucky enough to come across it. It stood out from the rest. So does true Connection once you learn to recognize it.

With time, I’ve become skilled at recognizing such Connection quickly, or alternately, the lack of it, the latter of which spares me wasted time and energy on matches which are ultimately ill-suited. For me, Connection largely has to do with physical attraction, intellectual stimulation, how I’m treated, and a sense that I’m seen and heard. If I feel seen and heard by a man, he’s both treating me respectfully, but also “getting me.” If we can look each other in the eye, a very specific kind of looking at each other, whilst having stimulating, fun, and sexy conversation, that’s Connection. As Carrie Bradshaw would say, “Zsa zsa zsu.”

If you’re at a place in your romantic journey where you have a strong sense of what and who you seek, congratulations! Having a strong sense of the kind of match you seek and Connect with allows you to date with more purpose in your search for a romantic partner.

If you’re still not sure who or what you’re looking for, that’s worth discerning, and you have some information to go on, even if you’re returning to the dating scene after a long hiatus. Reflect on your dating and relationship history–where have you felt strong Connection before? What qualities about that/those persons and your relationship dynamic made you feel that way? Try and be as specific as possible. The more clarity you have on what draws you to people and makes you feel Connected, the more purposeful you can be in your romantic search.

Connection is Mutual

Connection is mutual, otherwise, it’s disconnection or lack of connection. You can’t be Connected to someone who isn’t Connected to you. That’s part of the power of Connection–it’s fueled by the mutualism of feeling. And again, that’s a rare, and therefore precious, thing.

Though Isaac and I have never been in a committed relationship, after a decade in my life, he said to me, “We are Connected.” Yes, we are; it’s mutual. We both feel it.

Evan said to me, “We are kindred spirits.” We are indeed. I feel it too.

Damon and I had a second date. You don’t do that long distance if you aren’t interested. And though there wasn’t a third date (his call, not mine), for over a year after our last date he looked at my profile with regularity, despite scant communication. If he didn’t feel some Connection, he wouldn’t have bothered to look at all.

Grieving Connection

Connection, though powerful, doesn’t guarantee relationship success, because Connection doesn’t necessitate that both parties are willing to commit to doing the work of relationship, and relationship requires an effort by both. If relationship were only about Connection, I wouldn’t still be single. I’ve Connected.

David often talked about the power of our Connection. More than once he told me that when he dreams about people he knows, they never look like themselves, yet whenever he dreamt of me, I always did. He put that down to the strength of our Connection. We both recognized our Connection quickly and were swept up in it. At some point though, the power of our Connection was too much for him. He panicked and retreated, emotionally devastating me.

The higher you are, the further you have to fall. When Connection doesn’t work out, it’s painful. The more emotionally Connected you are, the more emotions you have to navigate when the Connection misfires. That’s not just disappointment, that’s grief. And grief can arise regardless of how briefly you dated or whether you were even in a committed relationship at all, because grief is emotion and Connection is an emotional manifestation of a relationship. Connection is something you feel.

That feeling, that sense of the Other being so very special, that hurt when a Connection doesn’t work out and the person removes themself from you, goes to the preciousness of Connection. If the Connection wasn’t precious we wouldn’t mourn it.

Connection is Precious

I’ve had committed relationship without Connection, and I’ve had Connection without committed relationship. While I prefer the latter than the former, ideally Connection and committed relationship are aligned. However, that takes both parties recognizing the preciousness of their Connection and acting on that.

I’ve had Connection with men who recognized our Connection, yet failed to follow-through with action. Disappointing on my end, and I can’t help but think Foolish on their end, but that’s their choice to make, and they have their reasons. Yet it feels like a beautiful waste.

If you have Connection with someone, recognize and appreciate how lucky you are. You have more than relationship, you’ve hit the mother lode, a rare and precious gift. Don’t take it for granted. Don’t squander it. Don’t play games with it. Follow it. Cherish it. Accommodate it. Prioritize it. Be grateful.

Of course, your other option is turning away from Connection or settling for less than. But if your goal is a romantic relationship, why would you want to do that?

And If you’re still seeking that elusive and lasting Connection, you’re not alone. Persist. We may have Connections behind us, but surely there’s another ahead of us waiting to be found. Carry on with your search, being mindful to recognize Connection when you’re blessed with it.

Good luck in your search!

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Processing Relationship Dynamics

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I’ve been thinking a lot about Relationship Dynamics lately. My last post, Going All In (inspired by an ongoing conversation I’ve had with my friend Jeff) addresses the importance of discerning your Relationship Dynamic before leveling up your relationship. However, I’ve also been thinking about Relationship Dynamics as I process my last two connections, both of which seemed promising going into the date, yet were ultimately disappointing in ways which surprised me.

Relationship Dynamic Defined

A Relationship Dynamic is the shared space of a Venn Diagram created where two individuals come together. It’s a creative space that can be whatever the two individuals who come together choose to make of it. It’s a unique space, because no two other individuals share that exact same space. “Dynamic” references how energy manifests, and each relationship has an energy. What that energy looks like and feels like is determined by the individuals in the relationship.

Though this blog is devoted to dating and romantic relationships, ALL relationships have dynamics, not just romantic relationships. My Relationship Dynamics are different with my mother than with my father, because they’re different people. I have a different Relationship Dynamic with my cousin-friend Michele than with my friend Ed. I have different Relationship Dynamics with each of my sons, colleagues, friends, and neighbors. Consider the different Relationship Dynamics at play in your life and the different energies in your relationships. What are you bringing to those dynamics?

When considering a romantic Relationship Dynamic, there are several factors to think about:

  • What is the energy level of that space–Energetic? Lethargic? Low-key?
  • What is the physical chemistry of that space–Stimulating? Tactile? Electric? Cold? Hot?
  • How does that space feel–Safe? Unsettling? Tense? Calm? Aloof? Exciting? Boring? Lonely? Fun?
  • Does that space make sense to you? If not, why?
  • Do you feel seen, heard, and honored in that space? If not, that’s problematic.

That space can be many things. In a romantic relationship, I want that shared space to feel fun, safe, stimulating, sexy, and exciting. What is that space to you? What do you want it to be?

Discernment of the Individuals

Though carefully discerning a potential match before going on a date is always important, as I date long distance, it’s all the more imperative for me. I’m neither going to put my safety at risk, nor waste my time and expense travelling, unless I have a good sense of the man I’m meeting and that he’s worth the time, money, and effort involved. He must be compelling enough for me to want to explore the possibility of Us and the Relationship Dynamic that we create, despite the challenge of distance.

To that end, before my last two dates, I did a Google search to ensure the men were who they represented themselves to be. That was easy enough as they’re both successful individuals, one even something of a celebrity in his field.

As much as possible, I also discerned the type of men they were and whether they were each a connection worth exploring from our interactions on the Match.com platform, and afterward through our phone conversations and text exchanges. Hours were spent on the phone before plans were ever made for a date. One day alone, I spent over four hours on the phone with R.

I liked them; I was attracted to them; I was intrigued by them. They’re both intellectual, worldly, perceptive, stimulating, and funny–rather dry wits, as they’re both British. All systems said, “Go for it!” So we did. In each case, we arranged for a date.

The Relationship Dynamics…

…were frankly disappointing. And that, after ample vetting and discerning.

With the added dimensionality of sharing the same physical space over time, both men revealed themselves to be condescending. (I don’t put this down to them being British. I’ve had this problem with plenty of American men as well.). The Relationship Dynamics were out-of-balance.

The condescension manifested in different ways with each of them. P had a tendency to mansplain, while R was angry and confrontational. With the former, the shared space felt didactic. With the latter, it felt like a debate which I was inadequately prepared for, lacking hard data and a bulleted list of talking points ready to go.

And what did I bring to the dynamic? I’m a confident woman, but I’m also an empath and a lover. I’m both strong and soft. I went on these dates to connect but felt the disconnect. I’m confident enough to own my intellect, as well as its limits. I welcomed their knowledge and experience, yet felt my own was discounted. The empath in me attempted to see their point-of-view, but this attempt went unreciprocated.

In both cases, the condescension was unexpected and with R it was so intense as to be discombobulating. I tried to give grace, but was allowed little in turn. I tried to stand up for myself while being verbally pummeled by R, but felt that I did so inadequately.

Perhaps that’s for the best, as it may have only further fueled R’s rage, a rage which I didn’t trigger, but nevertheless became the outlet for. We were supposed to be trying to play on the same team, but somehow our time together morphed into a competition which I had no desire to engage in and did my best to deflect. Ultimately, no one won in that scenario.

Processing Relationship Dynamics

I certainly had a lot to process after these dates. And that’s my entire point. I’ve been at this dating gig for a long time, I know what I’m doing, and yet there are still plenty of curve balls and always new things to learn. That’s because each person is a unique individual, as is each Relationship Dynamic.

To that end, it’s important to be mindful of what you’ve already learned from past relationships and experience; to pay attention in real time to the information a potential match is giving you through their words and actions; and to continue to grow and learn yourself through new experiences.

As to my experiences with P and R, I found myself revisiting lessons that I’d already learned. Sometimes that happens. Sometimes the knowledge and memory of a lesson learned isn’t enough. Sometimes I need to reexperience it to solidify the lesson, to practice the lesson again in real time. Just as with anything–from yoga to Italian to guitar–the more you practice and review with proper attentiveness, the more mastery you attain.

Here I share some of my processing with you as an example of that continued growth and learning. As I process, I learn what I can from their behavior, from my behavior, and from our dynamic in that shared space. And while we can glean insight from other’s behavior that may serve us in the future, it’s our own behavior that we need to focus on, because that’s the only thing we have agency over in the shared space of relationship.

Knowing Yourself and What You Bring to the Dynamic

Processing in reflection with time is a strength of mine. I’m good at turning things over in my head and examining situations from different perspectives. This in turn, gives me insight into a situation and the behavior of people involved, including myself. The more temporal and emotional distance I have from a situation, the more perspective I can get.

Over time, I’ve improved at thinking on my feet in the moment, but this isn’t where my natural talents lie. I’m particularly aware of this when I’m put on the spot, as I was with R, who was raring for a debate.

With this knowledge of myself, of my intellectual strengths and weaknesses, when I reflect on my time with P and R, I recognize that I gave them grace by not calling them out on their condescending behaviors. Perhaps that was overly soft of me, yet I do want to be as grace-giving as I reasonably can, and if they aren’t able to allow grace in turn, that’s more of a reflection that our shared space is not somewhere I can thrive.

For instance, when I took P to an Indian restaurant where I worked for several years in college (a fact he was aware of), he remarked on a traditional clay oven that was in the hallway saying, “That’s called a tandoor.” Now, a person doesn’t work at an Indian restaurant for six years without knowing that a traditional clay oven is called a tandoor. I looked at him kind of funny as I processed in the moment…Was he not connecting the dots? This would be giving him the grace of it slipping his mind that I worked here, and that of course I would know it was called a tandoor. Or, Did he really think I was that clueless?

Thinking quickly (Not my strength, but I did my best.), I considered possible responses. I could get defensive (passive-aggressive). I could call him out on his condescension (assertive or aggressive depending on how I did it). I could make a joke and laugh it off (potentially avoidant, depending on how I handled it). But I opted for simply saying, “Yes, I know,” in an affirmative tone, no sarcasm, no passive-aggression, no aggression, simply owning my knowledge. Did I stand up for myself? Yes, but not in a loud manner.

Though R was more verbally aggressive, I conducted myself similarly. I’m sure at times he could tell that I was annoyed or frustrated. If I disagreed, I’d say so, though not in an argumentative way, rather, simply offering that I had a different point of view, and also that I appreciated hearing his perspective and that he gave me something to think about. But sometimes, it was simply easier to not engage with his argument.

Insights on the Dynamics

One night at dinner with R, I mentioned that I’ve had a fairly lonely life– I was a misfit growing up; I was unhappily married; I’ve been single for fourteen years…plenty of lonely. Only he never heard my story or examples, he cut me off at “I’ve had a fairly lonely life–,” replying that I don’t know anything about being lonely, that I haven’t wandered in the wilderness for three days without talking to another human being, as he had. And no, I haven’t. But there’s a spectrum of lonely. Lonely isn’t one thing; there are many faces to it. He discounted my point-of-view. He discounted me.

I could’ve stood up to R on this point, but instead I let it go. Reflecting at the airport after the date, I regretted that I hadn’t stood up for myself more, in this instance and some others, but with the further distance of time and emotion, I wonder what good would it have done? Would he have seen me? I doubt it. Was it worth fighting to be seen by someone who’d put on blinders to me? Probably not.

Perhaps if I’d thought to go meta, to ask Why we were discoursing this way, it might’ve been a more conducive approach. This is the best rearview mirror option I can think of to honor the woman I strive to be–strong, authentic, and loving. Perhaps it’s an idea worth noting for the future, but it didn’t occur to me in the moment, and ultimately, it wasn’t going to save anything.

There’s a part of me that still wishes I’d stood up for myself more, but that’s me still coming to terms with and making peace with who I was and what happened in those Relationship Dynamics. I’m reminded of some of my mantras, previous lessons that these recent experiences have me revisiting, “Stand up for yourself in your relationships” and “Don’t give your power away…and don’t abuse it,” come to mind.

And yet, I don’t like being put in a position where I have to stand up for myself. Certainly, that’s not where I want to live in a romantic Relationship Dynamic. Rather, I want a dynamic where I’m seen, heard, honored, and respected. A space where we can disagree in a discussion without it being a debate. Somewhere that I don’t need to stand up for myself, because I’m not put in that position. A place where we’re on the same team, not in competition with one another.

While I certainly have feelings about how P and R conducted themselves, I reflect on my behavior within the Relationship Dynamic rather than perseverating on theirs, because that’s where my control lies. I have agency, but only over myself. The only part of the dynamic within my control is my own behavior so, to evolve toward better, I need to own what is mine to own and learn from it. But in doing so, I need to be careful not to own what isn’t mine, and learn from that as well.

And what can I learn from what isn’t mine to own? I can remember some of my Relationship Values: Do I feel seen and heard? Does it make sense? How do I feel? And in that respect, the Relationship Dynamics with P & R weren’t right. And that’s about the space created by both of us, not just me.

And What About You?

How are your Relationship Dynamics? What do you have to process? How do you process them?

Are you good at thinking quickly in the moment and responding to relationship curveballs in real time? Do you need time to process Relationship Dynamics to learn from them?

Do you process the dynamics with intention? Do you Zoom Out to look at the dynamics from different perspectives? Do you try to understand where potential matches might be coming from?

Are you mindful of your strengths? Your weaknesses?

Are you considerate of potential matches in that space? Do you take care of yourself in that space? Are you able to be the person you strive to be in that space? Do you own what is yours to own? Are you careful not to own what isn’t yours to own?

Do you remember and revisit the lessons you’ve already learned?

Do you pay attention to whether the shared space makes sense? Whether you feel seen and heard in that space? How that shared space feels?

Ultimately, my hope is that the story of how I’ve processed some of my recent Relationship Dynamics is useful to you as you think about how you process your own Relationship Dynamics. If you feel affirmed in your own processing skills, fantastic! If I’ve given you some ideas to stretch your thinking and get new perspective, that’s growth-oriented and a rewarding journey to be on. Either way, you’re doing great!

Final Thoughts

The Relationship Dynamic of each relationship, romantic or otherwise, is unique. It’s dependent on what the two individuals in relationship bring to that shared space. You can only control what you bring to that space and do your best to discern whether a particular Relationship Dynamic is a space where you can thrive as an individual. May you find and inhabit such a space.

Good luck out there!

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